feeling vs logic

Tonight I'm thinking about the oddity of physically being in one place, but your thoughts, emotions, a part of your world, all is happening elsewhere. Some where far, but not foreign. Sometimes foreign, falling and flowing as a stream of thought, but a stream unleashed and moving so quickly, and watching from a far, all you can do is reflect and feel. All the "what ifs" that can rob you of your sleep at night if your not careful. Then the thoughts of just letting all be as it is to be and trusting in that. I finally reached a point of not going down that 'what if' path...it really hasn't been a collection of thoughts I've chewed on for some time, I now realize. I think that is part of why San Francisco has been such a difficult place for me. The magnificence of the turning point that it was and has been, it was the boldest leaving I ever went through with hopes of something new. And although it took some time passing for me to question my move, in time i began to realize the hugeness of this choice made. My whole life changed. Nothing has been the same since. It didn't get worse, just different. It may have been a saving grace of sorts. I am inclined to think of it like this otherwise there is the potential danger of going back to the emotions surrounding that choice and the thoughts of you I left behind. Time passing seems to be the best thing so far, but i know it's always just thought, a flight away to go there. If i had to describe the full intensity of it in words, I could. I won't though because there would be no rhyme or reason to it and it's done and over now. The point has become a non point. This was a break though for thrusting my thought and future way beyond you. It has been the strangest thing, but good and needed.

I met a person that inspired me to write and reminded me about feeling again. Some where along the way I became so logical. I like both, in good balance. It's just a lot to think about sometimes.